New life today

Fleeting faces like clouds,

Changing shapes on the sky of my mind.

Smokey images, echoing cries

Diminish to whispers as from my sleep I arise.

Emerging into consciousness

Trying to comprehend the sleep-life's plots,

Still I lie, in fresh restlessness

Arranging my disconnected thoughts.

I'm stung awake with a familiar sensation

Steely looks, icy voice, derisive glare.

The cold picture of perilous desolation.

Ah! Reality and imagination had mingled there.

Sifting through the dens of memory unbent,

Eagerly replaying my vivid follies from the start.

I can't help but blame God's careless uninvolvement

when I nourished misconceptions in heart.

If only I could delete them from my mind

Like I delete messages from my phone's inbox...

But stronger and stronger grows the bind

Like chained and held with keyless locks.

Lord, Your mercies flow anew each morn,

Renew my failing faith I pray.

Heal my wounds and end my mourning

Grant me the will to forgive myself today.